Practicum (1st visit)

qin :

stayed back in sch to do worksheets till 3.30pm.. headed down to BBDC for my driving lesson.. failed subject 3.. haiz!! stupid Crank Course..!! dAMN tough~!!! lost count of the time i bump up onto the kerb.. can imagine how difficult it was fr me.. stress lor all the @&*#^% nearly came out of my mouth..!! lolx.. on the otherhand, 'S' Course was much better & easier.. will have to practice again during my next practical lesson.. =_=""

dear was alr waiting fr me in the hse when i got home.. was looking very tired after a long day of exercise.. poor boy!! collapsed onto the bed immediately after our dinner... didnt manage to have a nice talk / conversation with him.. haiz!! kinda having some problems with him recently.. anyway, thats how i feel la.. not sure abt him..

cos seemed to me that he doesn't feel like talking to me.. haha.. whenever i share something or my problem at work with him or even tell him something happy, he'll get rather annoyed and ask me to stop telling him all these which doesnt concern him at all.. i dun understand why is he reacting in such a way.. but frankly speaking, i dun feel gd abt it.... alrite maybe my problems etc really doesnt concern abt him but cant he just listen..?? am nt asking him to give solution / comments, am not taking much of his time rite..?? and just like what my lecturer said before, by keeping quiet and listen to someone's problem might be a great help to he / she rather than providing solution / talk.. haa... thats the problem i faced with this guy when we're with each other.. and while talking on the phone, another problem arise.. if i were unable to send my message across to him etc.. guess what..?? he'll get frustrated and say "I DUN WISH TO TALK TO U.." haa.. what can i say other than BYE... rite..?? haiz.. and everything thats happening seemed to be my fault.. dear ah dear.. was it really my fault or yours..?? look who's having attitude problem here.. haiz.....

alrite enuff abt him.. or else he'll say that im complaining abt him etc... am just stating the fact.. dun like me to talk to u then i shall write it out rather than burying the problems in my heart reamining quiet.. hmpz!! hmpz!!

was under stress last night cos of my prac.. lay on the bed fr almost half an hr bef i finally managed to fall asleep peacefully.. and into the dreamland with nightmares abt my prac.. Oh Gosh!! think im giving myself too much stress le!! haiz..

woke up early this morning and dear was still tired so i left fr work w/o him.. leaving him to have his sleep.. my goodness!! think he slept fr almost 14hrs bahx.. Sleeping King..!! lolx.. anyway, reached sch at 8am to prepare the classroom.. Belinda came in only at 10.20am and left at 1pm.. Almost 3hrs..!! 2hrs plus observing me and abt half an hr plus having a one to one talk / evaluation with me.. can u imagine how much stress i was under..?? imagine having someone there watching & grading u, writing comments abt u when u're with the kids... Thru out the 2hrs plus of observation, my kids were not their normal self today!! 4 of them (Natalie, Clarence, Joell and Clarkson) were giving me problems and i felt like strangling them on the spot.. Argh!!

-- Clarence was talking far too much!! opps!! sorry i shouldn't put it that way.. he's an inquisitive boy and that explained why he asked lotsa of questions which i was speechless, couldnt answer his chim chim questions!! haa.. eg. gave them letters to bring home show daddy & mummy.. make a guess what he asked..?? "Teacher Jenny, why dun give Postman?" my goodness..!! haiz.. and thank god there were some gd comments from Belinda saying that i gave children opportunity to comment, talk and ask questions etc.. *phew*

-- JoJo and Clarkson were both looking grouchy and moody after the snack.. Had a talk, asked them what happened etc but nothing come out from their mouth.. tried all ways to make them smile but nth work on both of them.. gave up and slowly they joined in the activities with the rest.. *phew*

-- Tioleting time.. they were sitting outside the toilet waiting fr their turn and something happened!! Nana was pasting a sticker on her forehead.. told her to take it off cos its ugly.. and guess what..?? they were saying 'Ah Bu Neh Neh'.. i was sensitive enough, ignore them.. only to realise it was wrong fr me to say that until Belinda pointed out to me after my prac.. said that i didnt link it with Indian's bindi.. i was like.. OH NO..!! WTH..!! stupid me..!! haiz..!! should have say something appropriate eg. "the sticker is sticky pls dun stick on your forehead or skin else your skin might get itchy with rashes etc..." tell me who in the hell will realise this..?? hurhur... *bang wall*

-- 10mins before they end sch, gave me another problem.. asked them whether they want to play Lego, no one wanted to.. asked them read books, no one wanted to.. asked them whether they want to have story telling again, no one wanted to.. *FAINT* i really nearly faint..!! ALL THE NO NO NO NO NO....!!! and suddenly they told me they want COLOURS!! was thinking.. my goodness!! this bunch of smart kids really wanna give me a big mess & problem..?? want colouring at this hr..?? haa.. guess what..?? i was wrong WRONG WRONG abt them!! told me they wanted the song abt colours which i taught them few days ago.. haa.. (actually didnt wanna play the song cos i need to use it fr my 2nd prac and in this case i'll have to change another song..) and thanks to this song everybody was alive once again... haa.. got back their attention in time..!! *phew*

below is a copy of what Belinda wrote.. haaa.. able to see it clearly..?? if u are not able to.. then im sorry u've to go figure out what it is yourself.. mixture of gd and bad.. lolx.. 2nd practicum is on 26th March.. lets pray that i'll pass..!! PLEASE....

PINKY..!! my new nail polish..

bought it @ The Face Shop @ CWP just now while shopping with mum & sis..

Opps!! sorry fr this long long long entry!! cos i had no one to share my problems with la..!! anyway, shared my problems with my colleagues just now.. haaa... and now!! wanna tell dear abt all these but it seems like he doesnt have time fr such long winded and "not his concern" talk with me.. so no choice but to bear with me la.. kk..?? =)