isolation

Kun :

I wonder why..
I've been feeling rather listless, not quite in the mood to socialise and interact with people, even my friends whom I have always likes to mix with. They tried to date me, I rejected using any slightest reason I can get. Have been "living in isolation" for the past one week plus or so.. except maybe interacting with other people and my colleagues when I'm out at work. Talked so much, joked so much, "funned" so much when I'm on duty, working with my colleagues, once we bid goodbye back in the office, my life quiet down again..
I do have the urge to go out, meet my friends for a drink just like I used to do almost every week, but I somehow just refused all the meet-ups, and chose to stay inside the house..
Anyway, went back for a review on my left eye which was injured a week back.. Did some X-rays and turned out to have fractured bones around my eye area, they called the orbit. Be going back next Friday for some CT Scan to examine the extent of the crack and hopefully can avoid going into the operation theatre for that minor operation. *sigh*
Kind of low morale recently, too much things actually happened.. Guess this could be the answer to my "I wonder why.."

Monday Bluezzzzzz...... missing u...

Qin

dragged myself out frm bed this morning.. been slacking fr the past one week, how i wish i can still enjoy life at hm.. lolx.. kids r back to sch, but nt all.. maybe some got phobia abt HFMD.. preparing d mother's day craft fr d kids.. ITS SUCKS!! turned out to be something i didnt expect, haa.. all bcos of their coloring.. lolx..

miss dear soooo much.. Hey! its been only one day we never meet, but d feeling is terrible!! dear dear.. u too?? haa.. i admit and knw tat im toooo dependent on him.. i wish i can see him everyday or hear his voice at least once a day.. even if its a few seconds conversation, i dun mind.. *blush* someone pls shake me hard and get me out of this!! lolx..

-- i miss the long long conversation that we used to have mths ago.. how he would call to chat with me..

-- i miss those night whereby he will hug me to slp..

-- i miss his smell..

-- i miss his "scoldings"..

-- i miss those sweet moments with him..

-- i miss everything abt him...............................................

why am i holding this r/s till nw? why does he mean so much to me?

its nt bcos im used to this guy by my side..

it nt bcos we've been together fr yrs..

ITS BCOS IM TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH MR. PANG........... =)

** dear, im soooo worried abt tmr................. im scared.........!! T_T

just another day..

Qin

Today's an important day fr Singapore -- The Singapore General Election 2006.. Argh! I was looking forward to this day bcos it'll be my 1st time involving in it.. but to my disappointment, my area was uncontested and won by the PAP in walkovers.. Anyway, as expected, out of the 84 seats, PAP won most of it.. Bet tmr's newspaper headline will be on this election thingy again..

Quarrel ended.. As usual sunshine after the rain.. =)

But..........

Dear still kinda giving me cold shoulder, making me annoyed with him.. Surprised me while we were walking back home frm our breakfast cum lunch.. he actually held my hand.. heez ^^ was sooooo delighted.. Laugh! Go ahead and laugh at me, call me a silly girl.. I dun care.. =P

Whatever it is that gonna happen, there's just one thing i wanna let Dear know.....

Thanks fr that warm tight tight hug just now... It really makes me feel better after confide in u... I was touched when u actually said all those words, assurance though i've already make up my mind.. I know u'll be there when i need u..

Hopefully u know and can feel that u actually hold a important place in my heart.. Though i did and say words tat make u very unhappy, disappointed before, i dun mean what i said.. I'm sooo sorry!! I'll try to change and control my mood swing and temper k? I love u.. Muacks!!