Friday, May 05, 2006

how to get back "yesterday".....???

Qin

my 2nd entry fr today........ need a place to jot down my tots...

i wanna get back "yesterday".. i wanna turn the clock back..... can i?? haa.....

dear out to cool down, get some fresh air, spending time alone since last nite.. juz came back and now slping le.. had our fight ended? why is it so that after every fight, he will give attitude and ignore me? whereas never did i ignore him after our quarrel, cos my heart will be easily won back by him again.... im soft-hearted?? haa.. cos if u forgive someone, and if u really love him, u will surrender.... thats love.... dun u think so?

i hate this "after quarrel period".... ITS SUCKS!!! its as though we'd become strangers over the night..... aint we a loving couple, in a strong and stable relationship? i thought we were...... and if its my fault fr the cause of this, i'd apologised.... so cant he give in a little? dun he wan us to work out? dear.. remember wat u mentioned last nite while i asked u fr idea on d sch concert? a fairytale..... lolx..

anyway, bet he will still give me cold shoulder when he wake up..... if he dun, its a miracle........ will this miracle ever happen? haa....

im asking toooooooo muuuuuuuch....?

Qin

kids will be coming back to sch next monday.. will have to think of a mother's day craft.. oh ya, sch concert will be on mid october and d theme is FAIRYTALE..!! oh my! sound fun to u? guess what?? each teacher will be in-charge of one item.. and i'll be doing d Eng item fr N1.. wanna help me? give some ideas?? haa.. im nt sure whether i can handle this anot.. my kids r only 3yrs old.. think it'll be difficult to get them perform.. lolx..

im wondering whether am i thinking too much at times.. being too unreasonable, too sensitive, too petty, too hot-tempered, asking too much frm dear in this relationship..??

i feel that i've changed.. frm someone who is nice, loving to someone who is so bad, i dunno how to explain but thats how i feel.. i feel that i no longer worth his love le bah.. haa! i dunno wat lead to this, maybe its bcos i've been disappointed and heartbroken by him umpteen times..?? i can see that he's trying hard to please me at times, give in to me, doing his best to make up fr wat he's done.. trying to change.. i can feel it.. i really can.. but i seems to be asking more and more and more and more frm him.. is it too much??

take fr eg. last nite.......

he was in d room writing a love note fr me.. something which i didnt expect, something which is so sudden.. he stated in it tat he has this urge to let me know and be reminded of how much he actually love me.. *so sweet of him*..... BUT..... guess what i did.... while he was writing, stupid me.. giving attitude, throwing my da xiao jie temper.. complaining that he didnt wash d dishes after eating etc which ended up i have to wash fr him.. i know he never wash dishes de, but dunno why i suddenly blow my top bcos of this.. i was so sick, feeling cold last nite and i dun have d mood to wash.. thats why when he wanted me to wash, i make a big fuss of it..

we'd a big fight over this issue......... he's trying to be sweet whereas im being nasty..?

who's rite? who's at fault?

if both of us give in a bit more.. such quarrel wont happen..

what am i? an angel or a devil...?? or both..............???????

Monday, May 01, 2006

Help~!! boredom is killing me.............

Qin

what a boring sunday i had..!! no life............ i wanna go out have fun......!!!!!!

i wanna drink, drink, drink... i wanna dance... i wanna party and have fun... i wanna catch a movie... i wanna shop... i wanna go wild wild wet... i wanna talk to frds... i wanna meet up with frds... i wanna go picnic... i wanna fly kite... i wanna do lots and lotsa things...... haha...... crazy girl here..

someone pls help me......... Boredom is killing me.................................

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anyway, guess what? yuppie! i've passed my BTT on fri.. gonna start my Advanced Theory soon.. but not now.. haa, cos im too lazy.. opps!!

dear & i have been "hiding" in my room these few days.. make a guess what we did in the room?? haa.. dun think of anything dirty worx..

hee.. we PLAYED GAME fr the whole day..... esp dear.. he was sitting in front of the pc d whole day, i didnt even get the chance to touch it~!! hmpz!! and when nite falls, all i could do was to slp w/o waiting fr him bcos he was too addicted in the game.. OMG!! we ordered Mac fr supper, pizza fr our breakfast cum lunch on sat, only manage to drag him out fr dinner.. haa! but its like less than an hr and he's back to the game again....

im gonna d/l maple to play.. guess its a nice game too.. cos most of my cousin playing.. and it seems like im the outdated creature.. haa..

okies, shall blog again.... nitez!!