home alone on a friday nite...

qin :

im nw at pigpig dear's house...

BORED..........................................

TIRED......................................................

stayed in sch to do the worksheets till ard 6pm juz nw and sweet pigpig came to fetch me.. hey! he has been a nice darling fr the past few weeks... we've been seeing each other day and nite, almost everyday... he do still go clubbing with his colleagues occassionally but hey dear, i've seen the "improvement" u made thats why i appreciate all that u've done.. and granted u to meet up with your 'zhu peng gou you' (nt his colleagues) last nite fr clubbing..

and now where is my dear pigpig??

haa... he's nw out with them again.... AGAIN..

anyway, im nt making noise complaining abt it.... in fact he did asked me and i agreed to let him go willingly... no attitude, BUT he kept saying that i shown him "black face" etc.. haiz! im so confused.... if i dun let him go, he'll say i control his life, restrict him etc..... and when i allow him to go, he complain that i show him attitude etc.... GUYS...................... what does he really want..?? lolx..

actually my stand is very clear...... i dislike guys to go clubbing.... and if my bf is someone who wants to go, its fine with me... really.. i wont object, wont restrict him, forbid him to go.. all i will say is "yes, u can go..." bcos all i need is someone who will be automatic.. will take initiative not to go and nt me forcing him nt to go.... its useless if i will have to use force.......

opps, alrite.. i've seen the improvement in dear, thats why i didnt kick up a big fuss this time round.... hee... im juz feeling bored cos being left at hm alone so i need something, somewhere to past my time...

hey!! i suddenly miss my dear yun and nana... haa, lets meet up someday again k...??

its bored here......!!! no one's online to chat with me.....................

forget it... gonna see what sean is doing... blog again......

i wonder.............

qin :

today M was not here.. so still nt very sure wat she wanna talk to me abt.. anyway, whatever its gonna happen i'll have to hang on till Mar 2007..

ARGH...................................!!!!!

there are at times when i do wonder, think alot......

* am i suitable to be in this line..??

* am i wasting my time and money to study early childhood..??

* where will i be heading to 3 or 5 yrs down the rd..??

* who are the one that can be trusted, and who are the one who will backstab u..??

life sucks...

forget it.. gonna do my assignment nw, no time to waste..

blog again..

unlucky day..

qin :

LIFE SUCKS.......................................

today is the last day of the mth.. was actually looking forward to this day cos its PAY DAY..!!!

BUT HEY...............

it somehow became an unlucky.. sorry, should be very very unlucky day fr me..!!!!

I hate 31st July 2006...!!!

everything was going on fine since morning.. had breakfast with mummy at the coffeeshop early in d morning, headed to sch.. did d worksheets until d kids arrived.. had a fun day until afternoon when we were having d meeting...

this has never happened in my whole life or should i say has never happened in any of my previous job..!! stupid management wanted to extend my probation fr one more mth.. which in fact since 1st July 2006 i should be considered a confirmed staff, entitled to all the benefits.. BUT.. STUPID PEOPLE wait till last day of the month then say "Oh, i knw u are very hardworking.. juz tat we feel that u're still young, need more training, need to observed your classroom management etc......" was like WTF..!!!!! i had alr checked with the J whether am i considered confirmed staff and she told me YES..!! and here u are telling me this shit.. giving me all these stupid excuses and say heard comments frm other teachers that i did nt take initative.. HAA... i asked "can u explain to me in wat way??? which part?? i juz wanna knw.." and stupid people, instead of answering me, said J & M will talk to me... and stupid ppl, brought up my mc as well.. WTF!!! im nt d only one who took mc.. and even if i took, i did check with J whether enough staff anot, if nt i go back to wk..

STUPID PEOPLE.. employed me as Eng teacher but u said nt enough staff need me to help u teach chinese as well until u found one.. did i say No..?? I did not.. even if the kids need to be cleaned when they poo, did i turn away like the other teacher, act as if nth happened, dun bother abt them?? i did not..!!!!!!

was so pissed off after i got my pay chq... went down to get my bag and guess what..?? the floor was wet and i did nt run or whatsoever, i juz walked in my normal pace and "BANG" i fell down hard onto the floor, was scratched by the edge of d table, leaving a long red mark on my back.. ARGH... couldn't hold on my tears anymore, i cried.. lousy girl.. felt so embarrassed..!!!

J actually talked to me.. asked me nt to be bothered abt wat STUPID PEOPLE said.. told her that im nt angry bcos need to extend probation juz tat she cant accuse me of nt being initative enough etc.. and even if u wanna extend my probation, u should let me knw earlier or on my last day of my actual confirmation date (30 June 2006) AND NOT WAIT TILL TODAY...!!!!

u have no idea how i felt.. utterly upset and dishearted by all these.. is like u STUPID PEOPLE HERE dun appreciate my hard work, accuse me.....

told dear abt all these, he asked me nt to bother so much since frm d start they alr said there's no increment aft probation.. anway, who cares abt whether there's increment anot, i dun give a damn.. im happy with wat im getting nw anyway.. juz tat u dun provoke me by accussing me...

oh ya, one more thing.. i dunno who is the other teacher who say i didnt take initiative... all along i've only been working with V and other chinese teacher........ i dun care who say these thing but if u really wanna say anything abt me... juz do it in front of me... dun do behind my back..... CURSE U... (sorry its somehow bad to do this but im really very pissed off.....)...

we're gonna shift and given 3 weeks to do up the charts etc and classroom deco.. ARGH... im gonna do a gd job...... hmpz!!!!!

haiz.. nothing in this world is perfect.. i love the kids here, the working hrs, the benefits... but nt the management... soooooooo i've make up my mind.. shall leave this stupid place aft getting my CPT...

shall end here... gotta wash up, having class ltr..........................

awaiting fr tmr.... lets see wats gonna happen tmr.. see wat M will say...............

STUPID PEOPLE,

dun blame me fr NOT...
respecting u as a boss....