confusing feeling..

Qin :

Caught "The Da Vinci Code" on tues night at The Cathay.. Nice plc + nice movie.. if im nt wrong, should be a 2.5hrs show, kinda draggy and confusing towards d ending part.. lolx..

Stayed over at Mr. Pang's house tat nite.. he's a nice and sweet guy.. wanna me to stay over so tat his mummy can take care of me.. covered me with blanket when i told him im feeling cold.. he's being extraordinary sweet, loving and nice recently..

He was out clubbing at Momo with his bros again last nite.. Though i feel tat its a waste of $$, i didnt forbid him to go.. Juz tat as usual i reminded him to behave himself, drive carefully on d rd, dun drink too much, dun stay out too late, dun slp in d car, and the main thing is let me know when he reach hm safely..

Am i asking too much? These r all the things all girls will remind her guy rite? All im concern is his safety.. Juz wan him to leave me a beep or wat so tat i know he's hm safely.. It worries me when i heard he's being caught by TP, being hit my someone when trying to help his frds, enable to drive back hm cos he was too drunk and have to slp in d car..

Why cant he juz appreciate and let me know? I was so worried when there's no ans on his mobile at 6am.. He finally returned my call at 9am telling me tat he only realised that he left his mobile in d car when he reached hm.. OMG.. he can reach hm slp like a pig, let me worry fr hrs and doesnt feel guilty at all.. It seems to him tat i've over react.. WTF....!! I utterly disappointed and angry with him...!!!!!

my Mr. Nice..

Qin :

during my last entry i was still nagging, upset abt dar wasting $$ on tat phone.. but nw i've alr gotten over it... since money alr spent on d phone, why torture my life and get upset over it.. rite? lolx.. silly girl.. >_<

went fr ktv session @ wdlands last sunday.. had fun.. juz the two of us.. but its so ex..!! hhaa.. poor boy, doesn't wan me to waste my sunday at hm, he didnt had much rest, slept fr only few hrs aft coming back hm frm momo.. hehe.. sweet of him?? due to lack of slp, he has been feeling unwell since tat night....

feeling guilty, i woke up early @ 6plus yesterday morning to boil barley fr him to bring to work..im a sweetie pie too rite?? haa.. *YUCKS*

alrite, actually i shouldn't have much complain abt dar.. he really change his lifestyle, temper, keep up to his promises etc bcos of me.. he's trying to be a Mr. Nice.. he's there by my side when i needed him, its more than enough..... *muackz*..

bored..

Qin:

I dunno what went wrong with my life..........................

I'm tired.... I'm bored.... I'm lost....

There seemed to be something missing.. Im feeling kinda insecure lately.. I do admit that i'm a freaking insecure girl.. I'll get suspicious, sensitive and upset over minor problems.. But the cause of all these is Mr. Pang, this is the only thing i know.. haa..

Why does he or his actions mean so much to me? Why cant i hack care everything abt him and lead my life happily?

I can see and feel the change in him.. Trying his best to please me when i'm unhappy with him even though i gave him a "black face" attitude fr the whole day.. I know a r/s need both party to give and take etc in order to work out but i juz cant help having worries.. It suddenly seems to me that its a torture fr him to be with me.. Is that true..?? I'm nt a selfish girl.. I dun wanna be a burden to him.. I dun wanna stress him.. I wan him to lead his life happily too.. =)

He's out having fun at momo with his bros.. and here i am rotting at home.. Actually he did mention that he'll bring his sis and me there tonight but.... ended up with his grp of bros.. Alrite, i'm nt a unreasonable gf k? I know thats the only day he can be happy, enjoy, have fun, spend time with his frds so i never forbid him to go or make a big fuss..

I'm juz upset over some issues.....

(1) His actions fr the past one week or so.. Perhaps its like wat he said, im over suspicious and sensitive? I really do hope i am..

(2) The way he spend his $$$$$$$.... Guess what my dear boy did today? He bought a new hp.. Listen!! A PDA PHONE.. O2 XDA ATOM PURE (LIMITED EDITION).. Forgotten the exact price but all i can remember was that its more than $1.3k.. My goodness!! Heart pain... I tried to "brain wash" him but failed.. To him, if he likes an item and its within his budget, he'll go all way fr it.. But.... As fr me, i'll only pamper myself once in a blue moon, only things that i really need.. thats why i feel that its a waste of $$$ to buy that phone!! Its nt as though he have got no hp.. haiz!!

Promised me that he wont change his phone after that stupid V3 and here he is.. broke his promise once again!! Today, Mr. Pang make another promise.. HE PROMISED THAT HE WONT BE CHANGING HIS CURRENT PHONE, WILL BE USING IT FR 2YRS.. haa!! What a joke.. Lets wait and see.....

When can he really start to learn and save up?? At the age of 28 or 30..?? OMG.. Mr. Pang, I know its nt my money.. I have no rights to interfere but i really do hope and beg u to save up can..?? I'm begging u......